people say such unnecessary things so often. that's what today has been. everyone i've talked to except for kim and two random boys have done nothing but be entirely unnecessary. i have no idea what's going to get me out of this fucking rut i'm in right now. one week today and i've been the shittiest i've been in so long. this sucks. you suck. everything sucks. usually i'm an optimist... especially in my thoughts. i'm nothing but hate right now. that sucks. i hate being like that. like this. all i do is blog and think about how fucking stupid so much is. and at the same time i love people and love the world and have an okay time but... COME FUCKING ON. bitter as fuck. i don't give a fuck... but somehow i care about everything too much. everything affects me too much. makes me too mad. makes me too happy. mostly mad though. i used to be able to flip it and only let positive things influence me and if bad things happened or if i got in a bad state i'd be so good at pushing out of it and being so happy the entire time. the past week has been the longest week of my life.
fuck it.
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