Sunday, February 1, 2009

i been in this game for yeaars it made me a animal

kim and kyle go away tomorrow... what am i supposed to do for a week. but they'll have a good time, and i'm glad that they get to get away and leave the city. it'll be good for them. it would be good for me. it's good for everyone. i really really really wish i had the extra money to go somewhere. pick up and leave for even a week maybe two. east. fuuuck. the only possible time that'll happen in the near future is montreal in may... which is rad... but... that's... not now. i don't know.
i'm at a weird state... point... time... everything is weird and i have no idea why some people do the things they do. i just don't understand. i don't get itttttttttttttttt. what the fuuuuck. it's like i'm solid in my mind and everything that i focus on is okay, not in the way that it's necessarily positive or ... BETTER, yeah, better than anything else, but it just seems stable to me and when i'm forced to deal with other people's bullshit i just get almost dumfounded at how fucking unpractical and ridiculous some things are. it's weird but ... i'm okay with it. not okay with getting really fucking angry all the time but perfectly happy with everything else. just sort of... there. yeah. okay.
the past few days have been interesting. on friday kim and i did mushrooms with kyle brent and mary at the apartment. we didn't leave the vicinity of the neighbourhood all night but i liked it that way. one thing that came from that night was that i know, again, reassurance, that kim is probably the best person i know. like the greatest friend. we're on the same wave length. we thought that a belligerently wasted crackhead/homeless person was a shot/stabbed gang member... and our lives were in serious risk... at one point.. even though it was actually, in reality a really not that important or dangerous situation... we still both kept completely on the same wave length... somehow... and MAN. that was fucked up. uh. the rest of the night was spent just chilllllllin and doing cool shit. basically. i don't know. that group of people will forever rule in my eyes. saturday i lurked around all day, didn't go to work, then went to carols where CATLIN was! i haven't seen that guy in forever, he ruuuuules. later that night i somehow made my way to the drum. a lot of people were there. i was just super baked. i saw sasha for the first time in yeaaars and i still love him so much. man! also, i don't know why i should type this but i saw a group of probably the best looking boys i've ever seen in calgary walking down the street past the drum so casucally.... they were all just so fucking well dressed. i didn't know what to do. i don't even remember what their faces looked like to be honest but their clothes.... everything was just too good. how do they exist in calgary, i've never seen them before. MAN. after that ty and i went to... marks... house. the cats. the cat dog. excellent.
i got tired of writing comprehensible sentences... complete sentences. entries like these are almost useless but i just wanted to write something.

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