leather sandals

next weekend i'm going to edmonton and i'm glad because i know that durell and i know will find good things to do and i'm just looking forward to sitting down and talking to him because he gets it. smoking weed and contemplation and mellowing out. i'm going to buy a dress and maybe shoes and maybe a few summer clothes in edmonton too. i'm excited to drive by myself. i love highway drives in my car. the lines on the road and the fields that don't reaaaalllly seem to end on either side. i haven't seen a lot of my family in a long time. i haven't been away from this city since ty and i went to vancouver in the fall. too long. i wish i had the money to go to van. and fuck around and be by the ocean and see the people there that i haven't seen in so long. go to vic. maybe i'll go to van isle hardcore fest again, it was fun last year. so many straight edge kids... but sarah kenzie and i just sat in the vans on the other side of the parking lot drinking beer with our friends and somehow getting really drunk. i remember that tons of people stayed at sarahs that night. we stayed up late and listened to giles play guitar and sing songs. stupid songs. the best songs. he's so funny. i miss all of those people. it seems like i don't even talk to any of them anymore. and in december '07 when i went out there with neil for gia's last show... and then got stranded in vancouver because of a freak snow storm that turned into solid, pouring rain for so long. going to the grocery store with noogz and jenell. staying at aimee's place and having no real idea of where i was at any given point. wandering downtown and east van in the summer completley alone and talking to random people and sitting by the water and finding things and exploring. and going to waves at night with cody, and doing mushrooms with cody alex and mike. i remember when mike and i walked to machs on mushrooms and we couldn't tell if the road we were walking on was a hill or not or when the slurpee machine was covered in beautiful glittering snow and it was soooo great. hahaha. laying in lawns of clover on the side of kind of main roads. how every street had a different character. walking up and down commercial drive on a busy late night soo fucked up haha. laying in bed and staring at the ceiling being a race track? orrr the night when cody, adam, kp and i went to some lake thing in the middle of a neighbourhood and layed on a dock and listened to water bugs and looked at the stars and talked. sitting in livestock for so long on a day that i decided to downtown lurk by myself, and talking about the stupidest stuff for so long, then going and getting hot dogs and coolers. i don't remember the boys' names that i was with even, but we had a weirdly good afternoon? haha. i sound crazy. i'm not thinking and typing memories.