i want some secrets between me and you

raiiin. when i wake up two hours early for no real reason. when i go to bed 13 hours before my alarm rings. when i don't bother flipping the lights on, and i don't bother looking at you. and when in my worst moments, i don't mind feeling like i'm losing my mind or feeling like i'm completely fucked. sometimes. i don't know why i do some of the things i do and i don't know how i started thinking in the way i do. when you're awake, they're still asleep, staring at the wall, wishing that either you could be anywhere else in the world or that they could be anywhere else in the world because it's not what you want. point taken. it's not who you want.