i miss kelly and kira

i feel as though i'm either on the cusp of something big extraordinary change, or that i am on the brink of some stupid downfall. weighing both options, i kind of know it's the first because it's what my life needs . i also know that i probably won't realize/comprehend/full take in this change - this - flip - until a few months after it's happened. either way, i'm fully ready to see what happens in the next few months/year/however long and i'm even more ready to learn more and get more and just... change. hard to put into words, i'm tryin