"i could kiss every inch of your body for hours and i'd never get bored"

i woke up in the best way this morning and give or take, i've spent pretty much the entire day in and around my bed. it's always the most stable seeming people that can get to me the most but it always ends up the same in the way that they end up to be way more fucked up than i could ever really tell. it's the ones that inspire me that should be the ones to stick around. blood clots and backs. i've been thinking lately... and now i know that i should re think everything that i've thought about. comprehending what it is to want to understand "it" doesn't necessarily mean that it's some out of body religious monarchy or something, it could be as simple as it is you and it is different for every single person because every person is singular in their existence to themselves. the idea that since our brains hold memory can coincide with the fact that our brains are made up of matter - and all matter is made of atoms and molecules - and therefore they are a source of energy and energy can not be created or destroyed so the memories that this mind molecules have held have theoretically been passed down throughout the world through energy and a essence of matter - which then could be put into a couple different circumstances. rebirth, reincarnation, the idea of one person lives different lives over and over and even though the conscious of one lifetime is not able to remember and recognize the conscious of past lifetimes - maybe the memory molecules (memory ENERGY) still have the ability to hold onto those past lifetimes. now, how do you reach those "memories"? they are somewhere, they are tangible in their own right, but how do we reach them? altered states of conciseness? using methods of psychedelic mediums in order to put our minds in another place that could possibly reach back that far? i don't know but i want to know. it = you. universe/everything/entirety = universe. it = everything. you = universe? i don't know. just rambles.