for the first time in YEARS and years

yo the worst thing happened today! i'm jobless. i'm fucking JOBLESS. i'm not getting into it on here because it's not neccesary but god fucking damnit. sick day, got up to go to work, then just NO. fuck fuck fuck. i feel like i just got dumped after a two and a half year loving, passionate relationship. hahaha. whatever. no use getting like this. i might as well just get a new better job and have a little bit of a start over for myself? job wise. money wise. pace wise. YEAAAH. it still sucks. it sucks i'll never work a saturday day and i'll never see any of my regulars again and aw man, CABIN. but fuck it. whatever. fuuuuuuck it.